Wouldn't it be amazing to turn your actual reality into some sort of altered state? I don't know how anybody can really say anything but "Of course", but apparently they can. I was having this discussion, though not so elegantly, via text message earlier in the day. This led me into quite a train of thought, invoking many emotions along the way. I started thinking about the brevity of our lives, and the most effective and meaningful way to utilize the time that we have here on this earth. This is going to dig a bit, so beware.
Regarding my aforementioned conversation, drugs were not the only issue at hand. I was trying to explain that life is meant to be experimental, although maybe not in the purest definition. I was trying to convey that in our time here, what is to hold us back from enjoying everything to the fullest? A sense of morality? Preconceived notions of what is acceptable and what is not? I'm completely against all of that, but I don't declare it in a proud manner, as in a "I don't give a fuck" way. I just don't think that living in the confines of others' beliefs and ideals is the best way to go about ones' business. I want to see all that I can see, I want to experience everything that I can. I know that most people would agree with such, but I have a darker desire, according to society's standards.
Now, I must say, I am not condoning the use of drugs, or anything of the sort. However, I do believe that these substances are there, and although frowned upon, I feel that they are quite an effective way to give you a different state of reality. I was listening to a song a couple days ago, and I'm fairly certain that it was Kid Cudi. I remember him saying/singing "Everything is better when you're high." Now, if you've never even smoked weed, then I'm not sure if reading on is of any use, unless you are on the fence. But, if you have, then you can completely understand this. Marijuana simply makes everything more enjoyable, whether it be watching a movie, listening to music, just hanging out with people, playing video games, food, etc. I can't ever remember a time where smoking a bit of tree was anything but magical. That being said, I don't find it correct to use this every day, in order to recreate your world, where everything is done in this altered state of mind. I am certainly not saying this in the least bit. I believe, as with everything else, that moderation is key. I was never a "pot head", even in the times where I smoked more than average. By not taking a complete slide into Stonedtown, it made every time wondrous. Whenever I would partake, I would reach this level, and everything was beautiful. All of my cares would just disappear, that is unless my parents were calling me on my cellphone... haha.
Now, I of course ventured much further than weed. There are a few other substances that can give you quite a different view of the world. If I were to have to recommend anything, without much reservation, it would certainly be ecstasy. Now, once again, I am not telling anybody to go out and do anything. God forbid anybody would accuse me of that. Plenty of parents I'm sure blame me for one thing or another, to which I just believe that everybody makes their own decisions. I'm sick of people pointing fingers at others for their choices, it's absolutely absurd. But anyways, back to Mr. E.
From the years of 2004-2007ish, I took quite a hefty amount of MDMA (the chemical in ecstasy pills). I've had some of the best times of my life whilst accompanied by this wonderful little delight. And, if you check out the newest "drug rankings", there is really no evidence that taking ecstasy (even over prolonged time) has any real ill effects. And, if you notice, alcohol has been determined to be the most harmful substance, just above heroin.
One weekend, I believe it was after some huge club event or something, I took about 15 pills throughout the weekend. Now, I usually took a fair share, but 15 is quite a bit. I remember driving home after the fact, but as night fell, I started to have visions. I would see huge castle doors open for me in the middle of the road, and I would see people seated at tables in the middle of the road as well, feasting on a Thanksgiving meal. This was not scary, but really amazing. Back when we used to just hang out after the clubs, sometimes I would lose sight of everything while sitting on the bed, have a "dream" of some sort, and then come to and start praddling about whatever was in my head, which was complete nonsense in the real world, but made perfect sense to me. I just find it enchanting to have access to something that can basically put you in a whole other world.
Also, there are the hallucinogens. LSD (acid), mushrooms, and the lot. I have done these quite a bit, as well. I don't even want to get too detailed, because once again, I don't want anybody to have the belief that I'm glorifying these things. I'm not. I've been a bit more behaved lately, as I've certainly had "my time". But the effects are undeniable. I have pieced together the meaning of life during a nice trip, and then in a moment it was gone. But in that moment, I was sitting there, and wondering, "What do I do now? I know everything, there's nothing else to do." Unless you've ever had one of these moments, you can't even come close to understanding the power it brings. Even afterwards, you have a bit more enlightened view of the world. I've also seen that they are using 'shrooms to treat depression and drug addiction. I also remember that once, while on some mushrooms, I had some other choice drugs, of the harder variety. I was in a bit of bad shape then, but when I looked at these, I had no interest in them, nor did I have any idea why I ever did. It completely reshaped my view of what was important to me.
I could certainly go on about these kinds of things all day and night, forever. However, it is my belief that certain people might not agree with this posting, and might consider this a bad sign as far as me keeping myself in line. Talking about these things doesn't make me long for those days, though. Everything is much better without having a dependency on drugs, believe me. But, if you don't have an addictive nature, I don't much see the harm in certain things. I know I've dipped a little into the heroin conversation on here. I noted that it's the warmest hug, the most amazing feeling, and places you in a much more manageable reality. This is all completely true, but the consequences far outweigh anything else positive that you could attempt to say about it. I'm completely content without drugs, I really am, and I'm not saying that if you don't do them, that you are wasting your life by any means. Shit, that makes you a stronger/better person than I am (once again, according to others). However, that leads me to my final question.
How could you have no interest in discovering new possibilities? I mean, basically everybody I know of age uses alcohol, and as I mentioned before, it is the most harmful of all illicit substances, yet it's legal. I don't know if the legality restricts others from delving into other things, or if it is just the morality bestowed upon them from other generations. But, these things are less harmful, and will show you a time like you can't possibly foresee. Every time is a journey, and every time is magic. It just perplexes me when somebody tells me that they have no interest in it. I am forced to conclude that this is purely based on other people's beliefs, because I can't comprehend why anybody would not want to experience something so surreal.
Either way, you should live your life as you see fit. I can certainly say that I'm not a majority leader here, I know that most people don't, rather than do. But I think an open mind is one of the most essential parts of living a full life. If I were to die now, I don't know that I could really testify that I would be happy, but at least I got to have some great experiences. And, once again, I know you can have a hell of a time without the use of any drugs, but I don't know if it could compare to the nights I've had, I really don't. It's a whole new world awaiting you. I guess the same thing happened when our ancestors came to America. The people that stayed weren't sure it was such a great idea, but the ones who came, they were looking for something more. I'm one of those people, looking for something more. Sure, I can certainly do some more things in my life to make it more meaningful. But, I know that I've had a blast, and am grateful to have lived a life which can be put into countless stories and memories, all really special.
I keep going on, but I'm not sure that I really got any point across. Take from this whatever you can, and remember, don't say I told you to do anything, because I sure as shit did nothing of the sort :). Live at your own risk, everybody, and keep it real.
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